Grateful for the Fall

My favorite moment this year when I was performing was when I messed up.  It was beautiful.  This is the moment I learned to acknowledge my mistakes when I peform.  It’s really something that audiences love, when they see that you are human and real.

For those who can’t tell, I wasn’t supposed to stop and restart.  I messed up the lyric and couldn’t go on.  That moment freed me.  I realized that making mistakes, even in front of a dozen people, was not the end of the world.  I realized I don’t have to be perfect all the time and things will still work out.  I decided to take up piano.  I always wanted to learn, but any time I had tried before, I couldn’t because I wanted to be perfect and couldn’t make mistakes.  This has transferred to most aspects of my life (it’s a process, but I’m a lot more ok with going with the flow).  Part of the reason why I talk, so much about grounding and knowing that everything is not going to fall apart if you make a mistake is because I’ve lived it and I’m living it.  And I’m a better performer and person because I’m able to let go.