Time For Change

A Craigslist ad changed my life.  The only time I had roommates in my life was my first three years of college.  I didn’t have a problem with them, but I just liked living by myself.  When I graduated from grad school in Boston, I was broke, in debt, and my teaching job didn’t start for a few months.  I couldn’t afford an apartment by myself; I needed a roommate.  I swallowed my pride, and I went on Craigslist looking for one Continue reading “Time For Change”

A MIGHTY HEART – ACKNOWLEDGING OUR OWN GIFTS

The hardest part when I first started performing by myself was staying on the stage after the performance. I would sing my songs and then want to leave the stage. No bows. No applause. Just leave. I started performing because I realized that people thought my singing was pretty, and I felt that it was my gift to others. That said, I really didn’t believe that that was true. I was afraid that I wasn’t good enough, that I wasn’t talented enough. It was really uncomfortable and terrifying being on the stage. But I kept doing it because others believed in me. Continue reading “A MIGHTY HEART – ACKNOWLEDGING OUR OWN GIFTS”

HEAL THY SELF – CAN WE LET GO OF THE OLD PAIN FOR FREEDOM?

Originally written for the New Moon Women’s Circle website

Before you can let go of anything, you need to realize you’re holding on.  “How could anyone ever love me?” “People are mean.” “No one understands me.” That’s just a few of the pieces of baggage that I’ve been carrying along with me.  I only just realized that in the midst of finding love and happiness in my life in the past years that I was still dragging those fears along with me. Why? For me, it has always been:  it’s safe, it’s familiar. Continue reading “HEAL THY SELF – CAN WE LET GO OF THE OLD PAIN FOR FREEDOM?”

Passion – What Drives You?

Originally written for the New Moon Women’s Circle website

It manifests in many different ways: from a small quiet voice to an overwhelming burning desire. For me, passion visits me as a persistent achy feeling in my heart and my gut. But what do you do with it?

When we moved to New York, I saw that there were so many opportunities to sing that I figured I might as well go back to voice lessons and see what would happen. Five years later, I’ve done two full cabaret shows, including a MAC (Manhattan Association of Clubs & Cabaret) Award nomination for my debut show. I’m currently working on my next time and having more fun than I thought was possible. I get to share this joy with the people I care about and with a wonderful community of talent.

So easy, right? Wrong. Continue reading “Passion – What Drives You?”

Breath of Life – How Do We Engage In Self Care?

Originally written for the New Moon Women’s Circle website

How can I help? Can I help you?  I love helping people and giving of my time and energy to lift people up.  In fact, I could easily give all of myself at anytime to be there for the people I care about.  And I have.

And I became exhausted.  And sick. I had nothing left to give.

After years of therapy, I have begun to learn what was missing:  I wasn’t giving anything to myself. It doesn’t have to be anything big, but I need to give to myself so that I am able to serve others.  Whether it is taking myself to see the latest “chick flick,” getting an ice cream with rainbow sprinkles, or sitting enjoying nature, these little gifts that I give to myself energize me; then I help others and as long as I continually treat myself, I do not get completely worn out.

Sometimes the gift is rest.  What yoga has taught me is that we need to be mindful of where we are and act from that place.  Sometimes I might want to go out, but I only have enough energy to watch tv. Sometimes the gift is saying “no.”  My friend recently asked me to go to an open mic. But I was running low on energy and had a busy weekend, so I said “no.”  It was incredibly difficult, yet at the end of that evening I felt my energy return, and I was able to give my best to my clients, and then I was able to be social with my friends.

This is a practice that I still struggle with.  When I ignore myself my body, my mind, and my spirit will shut down when they have no energy left.   We wouldn’t go on a trip without filling our car with gas, so why do we expect to go on life’s journey without filling ourselves up.  And we wouldn’t ask our friends and family to join us to get stuck in the desert.  If we want to take care of others, we need to take care of ourselves, first.

A Spirit of Adventure – Allow Your Inner Indiana Jones To Take The Wheel

Originally written for the New Moon Women’s Circle website

Only in a leap from the lion’s head shall he prove his worth.‒Dr. Henry Jones Sr.’s Grail Diary

Just one small step can change everything.  I graduated with a BA degree in drama, and I found myself in the rather comfortable position as an administrative assistant to certified public accountants. Continue reading “A Spirit of Adventure – Allow Your Inner Indiana Jones To Take The Wheel”